My own fault

i don't know what's taking over me?? you're so sweet, so lovely, but even so i let go. you didn't create this problem, all of this is my own fault. i know that you're gonna hate me for saying these words right now.
i know it ain't easy for the two of us. that's right! but you know what???...... sometimes i just don't care what people say. without anyone knowing, i think of you. it's a love that only you and i know in this world.
all day i remember you. in front of many people, i can't express my greetings or a single words to you. ck, it's making me anxious! this feeling like i'm walking on ice and flying in the sky. i feel you are hotter that sun and i am colder than ice. you and i, we can't speak of this love.
every day, i am love sick over you. so do you know how much i miss you???
i can't even look at your eyes. who will know this feeling???
and again today, i tweet and share about my current status with a nervous feeling.
actually, i'm the bad one, i am a really bad person, i'm an idiot, i'm a coward, saying that i can forget you, it's all lies. i know you the best, i know you better that anyone else.
and now, i can't even tell you warm words, i don't have anything to give you. i can't even dare to hope and pushing you away like this.
finally, i'm sorry. this wan't do anymore. i don't even have the right to come near you anymore